Sunday, July 20, 2008


i need somebody
just help

it's 4.08 a.m
i'm still waiting
waiting for something to happen
i'm exhausted
my eyes were weary

i know it's dying
and i can't reach to protect it anymore
it's just so sad
but i've been sad for far too long
when the final judgement came
and it was leaving me for good
i didn't feel anything
it was leaving me
forever perhaps

and the words rang in my head
again and again
i picked up some memories
there were nothing more but memories
i'm free!

i slumped
my bed was the only thing that's perfect
i didn't think of anything
the world was ever so empty
water felt down
and for the very first time in months
i wept like a child
i can't believe it happened
i can't believe i was going to be alone today
and the day after that

and i wasn't thinking about it
i was thinking about something else
but that something else may never know
you let me down now just like i let you down then
still i miss you with my every breath
i still try to hold on to silly things
i never learn
oh why
all the possibility
i'm sure you've heard

it doesn't matter
it doesn't matter anymore
what others thought of me
and how they may never know how i really feel
what matter is that i know myself
even though i lost my self through
self discovery and self recovery

so to it
it told me i was the best thing that ever happened to it
but it left me with no sensible excuse
may be it was right
i always get what i want
and it's what i don't have that make me fight for it
what different does it make anyhow
i'm alone now

i've given up to faith
let faith choose the way i should be taking
rather than to do something
that'll destroy me
and make me a bad person

saye sangat mengong

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