She sat there sipping a bottle of coke. She drank so slow that I assumed the coke was hot. She smiled, and for a second there she was very beautiful. I wonder why did he left her over some stranger. I heaved a sigh. We started talking; we talked about life, friendship, love, sex, family and fashion.
She is a wonderful figure, which make a beautiful girl, who turn to be woman, who learned that betrayal hurts and love made her grow older.
Her rational thoughts taught me to see the imperfection in the person we love is better than to go searching for something perfect and end up alone eventually blanketed by guilt, because true love is so hard to find.
When I look into her brown eyes, they tell me that denials and secrets are the weapon of self destruction, and one should never use them as a self shield.
There were moments that I felt she just read me all too well. She told me to stop looking for answers to the wrong questions because it wouldn't really make any sense. She told me to stop thinking too much, to quit getting ahead of myself.
She told me that if we're really meant for someone, we'll eventually end up with that person. And when the time comes and you have to make a choice, you have to fight for it. I was scared because I knew that I still wasn't sure if I could "fight for it". I was scared because he mattered. I think it will come to a point wherein I was willing to risk Time and see a year from now if there was really something.
I still had a lot of growing up to do. Dentistry school was just around the corner and I tried to avoid as much complication as possible.
I was sure that he was special, that he is always going to be someone in my life. I wasn't sure if I could risk everything. I was torn between my dreams and my dream guy.
She was right, I haven't even answered Question A and already, I'm looking for answers to Question B.
I know that nobody remain happy eternally and tears are only a door away.
Then again, thank you MiSs XxX.
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