First day at oral surgery III

I 'barely' sleep last night,

Monday is the day i feared,

My first day as "Bendol hijau" or senior student in oral surgery clinic,

Mule2 time nurse jerit2 ada kasus kontrol accident,

I buat tak dengar jer... Tak confident lagi,

TAK BELAJAR LAGI!!

Eventually Arina and I took over the case,

So, first day of oral surgery III,

From 9 a.m till 2.30p.m,

I did Refractoring gradual reposition with IMF (case control)

and extracted 3 Molars (M3, M2, M1)

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Tired

no...

Exhausted

but Alhamdulillah

Not bad for my first day at Oral surgery III

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P/s : Untuk u guys yang belom masuk Oral surgery III , cabut gigi tu ialah satu seni, ada cara, ada twist dia, ada obat dia dan jangan lupe yang PALING PENTING ialah psychology patient, jangan lupe patient tu MANUSIA bukan eksperimen korunk di dentistry school.

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P/s : For my beloved housemates yang tengah klinik O.S III now, CAIYOK MY HUNNIES!!

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BEST OF LUCK!!!

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:+:+: My walk-in patient :+:+:

Jom kite bace dulu, shin chan and the dentist :
Hrm...noti tol! kalau lah i dapat patient cmni, boleh pensan!


Akhirnya habis jugak 4 minggu kerja dekat pediatrics. Dulu nama klinik ni pedodontics, tapi sejak beberapa tahun ni nama klinik ni dah tukar jadi pediatrics (dah upgrades sket) sebab pedodontics maksud pedo = budak kecik, dontics = gigi. Tetapi pediatrics melingkupi semua bahagian tubuh manusia. Semua dentists kat klinik ni tak suke diremehkan dengan nama pedo-dontics, sebab we did more than just 'teeth'. We also safe lives. Klinik ini juga terkenal dengan nama kedokteran gigi anak.


MY WALK-IN PATIENT


Ni dia cite tentang my walk-in patient. Pada suatu hari, I dapat patient walk-in, she's 8 years old. Case dia boleh dikatakan sederhana-parah. I pun suruh lah dia duduk kat my dental chair, since I got my own dental unit and private sink. Her mother tabs my shoulder, told me she have to meet someone, "Can i leave her with you, miss? I'll be back before u finish?"I told her "Sure2, absolutely," I lagi suke kalau parents tak ade in the same room, sebab I boleh buat kerja lagi tenang. Cubelah imagine you nk burrr gigi anak orang, mak bapak die kat belakang u. BREATHE-COLD-FIRE behind your neck. haha..


I pun start nak burrrr gigi this little girl. OMG. serious die dramatic. Baru burr sekejap, "Cop,cop, cop kak, bibir gatal," I pun stop jap, bagi die few seconds, bagi die chance garu2. I pun lanjut kan lagi. Burrrrrr lagi. "Ah! ah!!!! kene cermin mulut ni sakit," Rest few seconds lagi..."Jap2!! nak batuk..uhuk..uhuk..uhuk.....," I pun tarik balik burr I dari mulut dia cepat2. "Batuk la puas2 dulu," I cakap. Bila my patient da tenang, I pun nk teruskan my kerja "Uhuk! uhuk uhuk uhuk...." Duh! batuk tak habes lagi ke? "Kak, saya seleseme............, hidung gatal, nak garu hidung dulu jap boleh?,"


Memang klinik pedo perlukan kesabaran. Habis tampal gigi budak kecik ni, i kene lapor kerja kat my doctor. "Dik, tunggu sini jap ek, akak nk panggil dokter jap, jangan pergi mane2 tau,". Adik tu pun angguk2, "Ok kak!" I pun lapor kerja kat dokter. Dokter pun datang ke dental unit I nak tengok patient, Eh budak tadi tu hilang!!! "Mane patient u?" Dokter tu tanye "Eh dok!!! budak tu ghaib lah...jap ek jap ek!! Saya carik sekarang jugak." I pandang belakang, I nampak budak tu on the way jalan dengan muke tersengih2 busuk, die terus duduk kat my dental chair. Dokter pun amek cermin mulut nak tengok gigi dia yang i tampal, "MasyaAllah!" kate dokter tu terkejot beno!


I pun panik lah. I salah tampal gg ke? ke salah preparasi ke..."Dik, adik baru makan coklat ek? Kumur dulu dik," Ya ampun, rupe2nye budak ni pergi beli coklat kat kedai cikedis sebelah klinik tadi. sempat pulak ek die. Budak2 dengan cikedis mmg macam magnet ok! Habis celah2 gigi die penuh dengan coklat.Noti nyeeee.


P/s : Bila budak2 yang buat kerja mengarut, kita tak boleh cakap apa2 dah. hahaha

:+:+: When I was 10 years old :+:+:

When I was 10, I planned nak kawen by the age of 25. Wear a white, most gorgeous dress in this world and a pink tiara, just like the one princess wore in the castle in a far far away kingdom. And my mysterious-i-dunno-who-hubby is a charming rich man. Dulu I plan kene berusaha giler2 ngorat a rich guy, so that I'll get my happily ever after just like the one I want! Everytime tengok my parents sangat faithful and sweet together, I always wonder bout my happy endings. I wanna work at the office like my parents, be as beautiful as my mother, and marry a successful guy like my dad. A.P.E.R.F.E.C.T.L.I.F.E.



But now?!! I'm 23 and will be 24 soon, My life?? Super serabot! Tak pikir kawin langsung. Mane tah super gorgeous white dress and pink tiara tuh? The only white dress i wear everyday is my lab-coat. Nak ngorat super rich guy? tak nak la. I'm only interested in super setia guy je sekarang. Dulu my ambition is to work in an air conditioned office, dream on... haha. My clinic is my best-friend now. Walaupun dunia sangat serabot now, but deep inside me, the lil' girl who dreamt about all those things still live and hope one day it'll happen. Someday.


P/s : Dunia tak seindah yang kite mimpikan. Tapi jangan berhenti bermimpi.

:+:+: Graduation 2010 :+:+:

For a better future

Hope is precious

Remember the past even if it's painful

Have faith

Be strong

Family is everything

Friends are your strength

Love your life

Forgive, but never forget

XOXO,

Shikyn

:+:+: KOPI-O BELOG :+:+:

I dapat inspirasi to write this post from Miss Hanahird, fakebook.


This is funny, the first time I open her blog, I laughed. I know I agak naughty to make this post. But whattaheck, 'u' saw this coming anyways. keh keh keh...

Few weeks ago, a lil' birdy told me bout belog pompuan ni yang 'hampir' samadengan mine. She's no stranger to me. She's my ex-stalker. Npe I panggil die Ex'?? sebab dah cukup 5 minggu minah ni tak kacau i, so dah kire record dah ni! hahaha. Dulu kite friends kat friendster and facebook, but I deleted her sebab I dah rase lain macam je pompuan ni.


Dulu, bile dia msg I je. I mesti told her "Leave me alone," Tapi lepas tu dia msg lagi, call la kadang2, tapi I tak angkat la. I text dia lagi "Leave me alone,"


Setelah 1000x I told her to leave me alone, pompuan ni cam tak reti bahase kot, I pun terkasar bahasa lah "Leave me the fu** alone!!!!" Die terkejut. She said she just wanna be my friend, "I thought u r different from the others, now I know you're just the same," I diam je cuz I know she's clueless.


I tak buat direct link from this post to her copycat be-log, tapi if you guys pandai, carilah her link at my blog lists. Same background, same fonts, she copied my initial symbols and rearranged them, same colors.


P/s : Thanks for making me the center of your world, girl. And if you rase obsessive-possessive lagi, I just nak gitau you. I don't hate you, and you can't hurt me anymore (kecewa tak??lol) and I'm 101% sure tak nak buah hati you. Don't worry. I promise. And of coz, we can be friends hunny.


Thanks again for making me the center of your world... lol.

:+:+: Thank you BFF 2005:+:+:

Post ni special for my bff batch 2005.

I nak dedicate lagu flyleaf - broken wings

Thank you for being such a friend to me

Oh I pray a friend for life,

And have I ever told you how much you mean to me?

Oh you mean so much to me

I'm thinking all the time how to tell you what I feel,
I'm contemplating phrases, I'm gazing at eternity,

I am floating in serenity...

And I am so lost for words

And I am so overwhelmed

Please don't go just yet

Can we stay a moment please

We can dance together

We can dance forever

Under your stars tonight , We'll live and breathe this dream

So close your eyes, but don't dream too deep

And please pass me some memories

And when I fall you're underneath 1000 broken hearts, carried by 1000 broken wings 1000 broken wings!!!!

Semalam I baru amek baju graduation. Bila pikir2 balik. Dah almost 5 years I duduk sini dan tak lame lagi semua orang akan grad dari UNAIR dan pergi ikot haluan masing2. Everyone cant wait to start a new life kat Msia. I just nak cakap thank you to my bestfriends batch 2005:

Arina

Ezy

Nadhirah

Yasmin

Anis

Aliya

Thank you so much for being there for me since first semester sampai sekarang. Ntah berapa kali tah I nanges sebab my x-bf or when my patients menghilang diri, or bile2 la. Thank you sebab whenever ade orang buli I, korunk sentiase jadi back-up terkuat. You girls memang bessssst. Memang I'm looking forward to start a new life kat Msia, tapi 1 bende je yang held me back from my dreams, that is you girls.

Cik Nadhirah

Roomates

Crazy min

Hawtie Ezy

To my hunnies : Memories will never be replaced

No salah, you girls will never be replaced.

Patient home visit

Last Thursday, I went to one of my patient's house. A 9 years old girl, she's one of my favourite patient sebab dia sangat dengar cakap 'plus' she's a super gorgeous young girl. Sangat2 chantek, macam pelakon2 Telenovela indo. Tapi dalam diam2 dia, nakal jugak budak ni. Believe me, I dah rawat and dia for the last one year. Ada 1 benda yang buat I tergelak the last time I pay her a visit. Mak die suruh I tunggu kat living room sekejap, I saw something that wasn't there last month (my last home visit)

(Sorry, pic tak sharp sebab amek gambar pakai hp je. Sofa kat living room dah 'berpulau-pulau'. Pulau E dan Pulau a)

(Ni pulau E... Bile tengok dekat2. ahaha... pecah perot! Sofa ni nampak mahal, tapi dah 'berpulau-pulau'. Adeyh, bile budak kecik yang conteng, kite tak leyh cakap pape dah. lol.)

p/s : Speechless

:+: Pedodontic dan budak ternakal di dunia :+:

Semalam baru hari ke-4 klinik pedodontic. Pedodontic tu rawat gigi budak2 kecik. Selalu my patients budak darjah 1 and d 2 darjah aje. Uh serious budak2 sekarang nakal sangat2.

(picture source - wikipedia)

First week - Pedo disaster 1

My first patient, a 7 years old girl. Dia datang klinik dengan kawan dia 2 orang. Deorang suka main sembunyi-sembunyi. Dah la badan satu-satu kecik cetetot. After treatment, I mintak tandatangan dokter jap je. Pandang kiri-kanan-atas-bawah, SHE'S GONE! Oh no! I pun ape lagi terjerit2 satu klinik panggil dia. Cari bawah kerusi klinik semua. Eh tak de! Last2 sekali, I nampak belakang papan tulis putih ada 6 kaki pendek2 tengah berkepit2. Dengan tak malunye. I pun sergah deorang "Gaaaa!!!!" Sucking nakalnye budak2 ni sembunyi sambil tutup muke deorang ngan tangan. Budak2 selalu pikir kalau dia tak nampak orang lain. orang lain pun tak nampak dia. hehehe. serious cute! tapi..nakal Penat jage!


First week - pedo disaster 2

My 2nd patient, a very handsomie 6 years old boy. Die super handsome sampai doctor2 pun cair tengok dia. My doctor semua cakap "Handsome giler patient you, you tak teringin nak anak camtu ke?" I mesti tergamam. Nak jugak anak handsome 'gile' tapi do I have the gene? haha. Handsome2 pun tapi budak ni tak nak dengan I. Dia nak dengan doktor lagi. ceit! (tibe2 feels rejected). Puas pujuk dia "Dik...nak dengan kakak tak? Nanti kakak bagi makan ek?" Dia geleng2 kepala. "Dik nak abang 'ni' rawat?" Dia angguk2 kepala and terus buka mulut. Aaargh!


First week - pedo disaster 3

Semalam ade doctor gile histeria kat klinik? Sapakah dia? Saya lah orangnye! Anis, my friend pergi sembahyang jap, dia suruh I jage patient dia. At the same time, I kene jage 2 patients lagi. Tibe2 patient Anis hilang!!! I terjerit2 panggil name die takde jawapan. Sampai semua staff and doctor semua cari dia! I LOST A CHILD! matilah....matilah... Tak jumpe budak tu!!! Sampai klinik dah tutup, nurse dah tutup lampu2 semua. Klinik dah gelap gelita. OMG! budak tu dah kene culik hantu klinik. Klinik tu memang ada hantu petang2 time takde orang, selalu ada hantu budak kecik berkeliaran. OMG! jangan2 budak ni hilang! Tepon anis, tak angkat. Tibe2 ade my friend cakap budak tu ikot Anis dari belakang sampai ke surau. Uh!!!! Rase cam nak geget spongebob je.


p/s : xoxo. walaupun pedo tu penat, tapi best actually. =)

Peluk lah sekuat hati

Peluk semuanya sekuat hati selamanya dan tak mungkin dilepaskan. My family, my best friends, Syaukhi, his family, his best friends, our friends and our future.

:+:+: Hospital Indo :+:+:

Early this week, I hadda fever for 4 days, flu-like syndrome , arthalgia (click here for more info) and horrifying tummy ache. It was on the 4th day, when I went to the toilet, I realized I was bleeding from my rectal. It was a shocking experience. First expression "Yeay!!! da period, tak yah sembahyang zohor!". Bile tengok betol2 "Oh no, ni bukan period, this is melena(click here for more info)," Second expression was "woooo," (jakun tak pernah tengok, it kinda looks like bloody, meaty and very disgusting.) I told my Bf, in 5 minutes jer, dia dah ada kat depan my house with his ride. Ready nak bawa I to the hospital. I hate hospitals, I hate doctors when I'm the patient. I hate needles and those stupid nurses yang tak faham2 I don't wanna get shot! The last time I was rushed to the hospital was when I fell down and scratched my self. It was a superficial painful 15 inches scratch. I got the scratch from my sharp rusty sink, and because of that, the doctor shot me with anti-tetanus(click here for more info), I almost faint in the hospital just at the sight of the needle. Kenapalah jarum wujud di dunia ni ha??



Anyways, back to the story, I was nausea and vertigo (click here for more info). Jalan sket langgar dindinglah, langgar teponlah... So this is how orang minum 'todi' feels like heh? I diagnosed myself with Typhoid (click here for more info)or dengue fever, belom dengue hemorrhage lagi. So rileks la, tak parah lagi, besok gi hospital pun tak pe. Watpe nak rush? I consult ngan my friend dr. Ezy, she agreed with me. But she said "But if u hemorrhage fever, shock (click here for more info) on the 5th or 6th day can be fatal, cam arwah (our dear senior),"



So, I went to the hosp. Following the normal procedure, the stupid nurse took my blood with the biggest needle I never saw (sebab I tutup mate). My bf took me makan spaghetti for lunch, an hour later. My full-blood-test dah siap. My WIDAL test was negative. Alhamdulillah. My trombo was normal but my MCH, RDW-CV, LEKOSIT, MONO were incredibly high. My doctor used to say, "Lagi kammu pandai, lagi kammu banyak ilmu, lagi kammu bodoh!" It's true actually. So I know it's not typhoid, and it's not dengue, so what is it? I guessed it's an intestinal infection. But when I showed my full-blood-test to my doctor and asked her what's wrong with me. She said "Ohhh... infeksi kat tekak je, normal sorethroat, and you saket perot sebab you gastrik biase," I rase die ingat I budak 5 tahunkot nak cakap camtu. Tapi asal die bagi I obat antibiotic broad-spectrum, I malasnak argue dah.


Thank Allah I'm getting better now, that tummy-ache still bothers me tapi cam chipsmore je. Now u c, now u don't. Sekarang tengah super pokai after buang2 duit kat hospital. Hospital Hindon mahal, dah lah kuman and virus kat indon sangat banyak. Moto Indonesia sepatutnya "Eat our food and welcome to the hospital,"

:+: Touched :+:

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My patient's sister drew me secretly. She's an autism (If you wish to read more about autism, please click here). I always visit my patient's house twice a month for monthly control. I can't help but noticed the beautiful drawings using crayon on the walls. Every side of the house wall, there is at least a painting. They were frame less. The family can't afford to frame any of them. They barely have enough money for food. This house will always be my favourite house to visit. As seen on drawing, I have my name tag on, "NUR DOKTOR". Hilarious, my name tag doesn't say that. But thanks. A smile for the world. She touched my heart, an autism, who can't speak, she doesn't even understand languages, but possess a magic hand.

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I upload one of my 'personal' collection, drawing is a passion. Like love, love is passion plus lust including all the other elements (trust, loyalty and whateva that adds up).

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P/s peeps : Never stop believing, never stop loving, mourn for your lost and smile because life is like a wheel, it won't stop spinning and it won't wait for you. To hell what other people trash about your life or your family. They may be right about it. Because remember this! Life is always an ebb flow to darkness and back again. Love - Shikyn (a broken hearted girl with a pinch of suckerness but believes that time will reveal everything and her passion towards her patients)

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:+:+: Fat :+:+:

(Admiring Gabourey Sidibe, what you are what you present to the world)

I am fat and I'm not afraid to say that.
I 'was' never skinny all my life
Sometimes I wonder how does it feels like to be one
But I'm happy with the way I look and I'm confident in front of my patients


"Believe me when I say it takes courage to be fat,"


It also takes an enormous amount of forbearance. The hatred directed at fat people is astounding nowadays. Often, it borders on dehumanizing. Hating people for being fat, whether out of malice or supposed concern for people’s health, is considered perfectly acceptable in our society.


It was never easy to be teased at everyday at my young age. I understand how it felt to be fat, ugly and alone. So the next time you feel like laughing at a fat person. STOP! Imagine what if she's your mother or your lil' sister who is weeping for help because she can't help the way she is.


Don't hate fat people, hate fat epidemic. Help all the fat people to fight against it.


(Taken from Glee! I'm a die hard fan. I'M GLEEKED!!! )

Guess what I'm doing tonight? Sleeping at 8.30p.m, woke up at 9.00p.m, ate junk foods and blogging. I'm such a lazy arse! And guess where is my bf? He's out to his routine work-out (every night from 7.30p.m - 11.oop.m). He's a gym freak!! But lately his hard work have paid off. If ONLY I can upload his 'semi naked' picture here, you'll go gaga over his body. lol. (tak malu puji bf sendirik). My boyfriend never complained about having a "fat" girl as his gf, sometimes when my self esteem is low, and I feel 'fat' and 'ugly'. I always say 'no' when he asked me out. At times I ask him, "why do you like me? I know I'm not pretty, I'm... fat. I'm not the best looking girl 'here'," He just smiled. "I told you, it was love at first sight, the first time I saw you, I knew we were meant to be,"

Dimanakah 'pertama kali' dia nampak pompuan 'temok' ini?

(Source: Nur Ashikyn's fb profile picture)

(Pardon my gedikness. It's in the blood)

To all my dearest hunnies : No matter what size you are, just be confident. There is nothing more beautiful in this world, than you... being yourself.

:+: Bila dia kembali :+:

Warning : Ni post semi-emo


I believe in quote "what you give, you'll get back," This is a private post, pernah tak someone you trust betrayed you? I think everybody has been in this situation. Just nak curhat kat blog ni je. A girl dengan initial RN promised me, she would never repeat what she have done in the past. But she lied, just to get what what she wants, what she desires and who she dreams of. I gave up on my dreams, everything I ever wanted and believe. She's like a sneaky back-stabber. I was weak, malas nak fight. I just gave up with a broken heart. I felt like a sucker, I believed her! RN 'ym' me last night, what more does she want?


RN : sori
me : u dpt pe u nk, xyah la ungkit pape lg
RN : ok. sori
me : 4 all the things that u've done, i hope it was worth it


Dearest RN, tonight saya malas nak layan awak, because I just realized

- I have nothing more to give

- I have nothing left to lose

- And you know, you have nothing more to take from me

- After what you're trying to pull,

- I think it's best if we just move on.

p/s : Kite same2 pompuan, Janganlah luka kan balik luka yang baruuu je nak sembuh. Peace*

:+:+: Menghitung hari dengan senyuman :+:+:

Baju kebaya dah siap!

Tengah mood super happy ni

Orang kate jangan show off dulu nanti jinx*

Tunggu je la for the big day, but I can't help it.

(I don't believe in jinx* pun. hehe.)

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Mak kate "This happens sekali je seumur hidup,"

Ni la saat2 yang di nantikan seumur hidup

Tapi I tak dapat rase kegembiraan macam orang lain.

hrm =(

May be sebab life sangat hectic now.

clinics, patients and tests almost everyday.

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Moga2 semua berjalan lancar.

InsyaAllah.

Alhamdulillah masih ada rezeki.

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Happy*

Lelaki dan saya

Saya tak ade adik beradik lelaki. So saya tak tau pun laki tu ape time kecik. Dulu time kecik, menurut pemahaman budak berumur 8 taun, yang membezakan laki dan perempuan tu ialah rambut. Kalau nak jadi pompuan bele lah rambut panjang, nak jadi laki bele la rambut pendek pastu berlagak kasar2 sket. Ha..jadilah satu produk laki yang sempurna! Dulu time darjah satu, cikgu tak ajar sains ke... anatomi ke... jadi saya tak tau langsung laki dan perempuan ni secara fisikal lain rupenyer.


Time darjah satu dulu, saya ada best friend, the boy-next door. Nama die Taylor (bukan nama betol), he was my best friend. Setiap petang main same2 around the neigbourhood. Mamat ni just a year older than me. Time hingusan dulu, dari mata saya dia sangat gentleman tak macam laki lain yang suke ejek saya 'gemok' ke 'dinosour' ke... (sebab time tu memang saya sangat montel, dari jauh kalau saya pakai baju warne biru tua nampak macam doraemon tengah berjalan).


Suatu hari, me and Taylor tengah main tiup2 buih depan rumah. Ntah kenapa dari dulu sampai sekarang I find blowing bubbles is very exciting. Sampai sekarang, time pergi taman mini Indonesia setahun lalu, the only ole-ole saya beli kat Taman mini tu ialah automatic bubble blower. Saya sangat sayang dan suke bubble blower tu, sampailah suatu hari bubble blower tu rosak. Itulah salah satu sejarah hitam dalam hidup ini. Tsk* Tsk*


Back to the story, tibe2 je Taylor cakap "Eh shikin, aku nak kencing la. Tak tahan dah ni,"
Saya pun cakap "G lah kencing dulu, orang tunggu kt sni, Taylor g kencing... orang nak habiskan semua air sabun ni!!! biar awak datang balik, dah habes dah semua...haaaa!!" Saya memang jaki sket time kecik2.
Tibe2 Taylor pun meletakkan straw bubble dia kat bawah dan membuka zip seluar dia. Dengan confidentnye mengeluarkan senjata dia dan buang air sambil berdiri.


Saya tengok dengan pelik. Saya pun bertanya ke Taylor "Apa tu?"
Taylor pelik saya bertanya,"Eh, ni buat kencing lah, kau tak de ke?Habistu kau kencing camane?"


Saya pun terus menjerit histeria, "Aaaahhh!!!" Berlari lintang pukang masuk rumah. Mak tengah potong sayur kat dapur. Saya pun mengadu kat mak "Mak!!! Taylor cacat! Kesian dia!"


Tu lah crite nostalgia saya. Bila dah belajar human anatomi, baru lah saya tahu human genital organs and their functions. So menurut saya, budak2 darjah satu sepatutnya diajar basic human anatomy untuk mengelakkan moments yang memalukan macam tadi tu. haha..